When you think of being a queen you think of power and boldness. You think of holding your head high and walking with a strut. At least that’s what I think. When you read this verse below and think about when God has called you for such a time as this, you think God will give you a boldness. Give you the words to speak out for many to hear and obey. Again, that’s what comes to my mind.
“If you keep quiet at a time like this, deliverance and relief for the Jews will arise from some other place, but you and your relatives will die. Who knows if perhaps you were made queen for such a time as this?”
However, when you read about what Esther did and what God wanted from her that’s not what you get. First of all, Esther becomes queen through humility and grace. God was already setting her up for humility when He gave her that assignment. It would be through her humility and God’s grace that she would be able to save her family and nation.
Her uncle, Mordecai, advised her to be queen and then he would call out to her when his enemies were plotting against him and their family. When he called her he said to her the above verse. What was her plan?
- Fast for 3 days, her and your girls, fasted for 3 days. She called a community fast. There is nothing like the power of Prayer and fasting. I will share my fasting experience with you in case you have no clue what that is.
- Be bold to ask for what you want. In those times you had to be invited to see the King, even a queen couldn’t just go see the King. The boldest thing she did, if you will, is walk in front of the Kings door so he can see her to allow her to come in to see him. This seems so simple but this is Gods grace over her. All she had to do, after praying and fasting, was to walk past the Kings door so he could see her.
- Humble yourself to make a meal for the persecutor. The King did let her in but then what did she do? She asked to make a meal for the man that was persecuting her family. But the King knew she wanted something else so he asked again. What do you want, he even offered her half of his Kingdom! But she simply asked to make a meal for him and this guy who was after her family.
- Not once but twice. She did this not once but twice, she humbled herself to make a meal for the man that was persecuting her people, not once but twice! This is incredibly difficult! To be humble and serve, not to people who you like and like you but someone who is plotting to kill your family- TWICE!
This is the boldest thing she did in my newly formed opinion. The story gets better but I pondered on this for a long time. I fancy myself as royalty for the bible says we are daughters of the most high King. I love wearing tiaras and crowns and often remind myself I’m the daughter of the Most High King. But what does God want from us, but our humility. We ask for God to make us bold but God wants to make us humble first. This one is hard for me, call it poor people pride but I don’t like to humble myself. I jokingly will make fun of myself or be humble when receiving compliments, but I find it difficult to serve people. And this is what God wants to work in me. To give me a spirit of serving others just as humbly as Jesus did when He served His disciples.
Instead of asking God for the perfect come back when someone insults me, or the perfect revenge when someone opposes me, I need to serve those who oppose me. Treat them with the real kindness of Jesus, not the “Kill them with kindness” kindness. But the washing their feet kindness that Jesus did, or the forgiving kindness that Jesus showed Judas and even shared a meal with those who would betray Him.
I have asked God to make me a new person for the old to leave me and the new to come. This is what that looks like, searching the parts of you that don’t align with the perfect example that is Jesus and changing that part of you. It’s a hard process and will change the very core of me, but this is what I want. To be a new person, I keep remembering my verse from the beginning of this year, I shared it on my Instagram:
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”
2 Corinthians 5:17
What happened with Esther and her people? Their prayers worked, and God saved them. The same fate the persecutor had for you, will be the fate they end up with. I encourage you to read Esther in the Bible, it’s a simple read but it’s an amazing story!
Peace & Love,