Fall Fabulous Series

Covid called me home. This quarantine really made me appreciate our home. Staying home I realize how much fun I had filming videos so I’m starting back up my YouTube channel. Imma open up our home and start creating content to show you how I {mis}manage my home. Trying to add some fancy to an otherwise simple life. See you there but don’t laugh at me though. #seethegood Bienvenidos A Casa Torres

Fall Favorites
Bella Grace Magazine
Audio Books
Online classes or workshops
Kimberly Snyder Beauty Inside Out
Sophia Amouroso Business Class
Happy Notes
Dirty Chai Tea with soy milk
Stay Fancy
Ana Maggie

Covid-19 Positive

Waking up in the middle of the night with a fever is not usually a deathly fear inducing panic. But in the wake of a worldwide pandemic that is exactly what it was. I retreated to our guest bedroom so as not to make matters worse and quickly made an appointment to get tested in the morning.

When the results came back it’s like a slap in the face. Positive.

Getting this deadly virus that has already taken so many lives is a mind warp.

The fear, anxiety, guilt, and unrest all settle into your soul and don’t leave.

Where I previously stated peace is a verb, I had to hold my death grip on it.

I had to find a different kind of peace, not a peace of heart but a peace of mind.

This virus makes your mind find avenues where the only thing left will be devastation and death. Every possible outcome is a horrible one. At least, that’s what you lay awake thinking at all hours of the night.

Somewhere at 4 am when you’re still awake and you’ve thought of every negative scenario you have to make a decision.

That your positivity and peace will pull you through. Or that you will succumb to the fear.

I for one chose to be positive and keep my peace. I must say that is when things turned around for me, mentally.

There is still of course the physical symptoms; the body aches, fatigue and sore throat. Constant reminders that no matter how mentally strong you try to be you are still in the middle of a deadly virus.

Sometimes you have to cry it out, let it out. With worship I belted out all those pent up feelings: fear, anxiety, pain, grief, guilt, all of it.

I can honestly say I felt so much better. That was a turning point in my 2 weeks out. The first week I spent flat on my stomach or sitting on my settee in my guest room that I did not leave my whole isolation. The next week I was able to walk more and actually read my books. I took a turn, for the better.

I hope my story does not become a reality for any of you reading this but I will say wear your mask and wash your hands.

Peace, Love & Lipgloss

Ana Maggie

August Reads

In August I read some great books and I want to share those with you, I was debating doing a small weekly video on this but then I just decided to do a “book review” on here. There will be spoilers, btw. I read Midnight Sun, Maud and Close Enough to Touch. I couldn’t get to read Godmothers this month, will keep that on my list for next month. For Maud, since its a book club read, I’ll review it separately. Look out for that post.

First book I read was Midnight Sun by Stephanie Meyer. In preparation of this read, I reread Twilight and New Moon in the months prior. So I felt ready for Midnight Sun, you really only have to read Twilight to catch up. Midnight Sun gives you Edwards version of the events in Twilight.

I am a fan of The Twilight series! I am on team Edward for sure. I understood the reason why she chose Edward and it was her choice of who she wanted to be versus who she was. I read the 2008 released draft of this book and have been patiently waiting for it since.

I rate it 🩸🩸🩸 out of five.

What I loved was that it gave so much more detail to my favorite scenes in Twilight. Since Edward can “see” more we get to read more. That was both the best part and the worst part, as he goes into too much detail at times and I forget what we were even talking about to begin with. He veers off a lot that I found it unnerving and some thoughts I felt didn’t need to be added.

What remains annoying is that all the guys like Bella and all the girls were jealous of her. I still find that annoying that all of the women in her life are jealous of her even the “perfect” Rosalie. I felt it could have used a female empowerment element. Even her best friend of Alice, you don’t see them interact much at all, and what they do interact is just Alice helping her spend time with Edward.

I like that you get in depth into the Cullens. I always wanted to explore more into their lives, as well as the other vampires especially the Denali coven. I did like that it explores more about their lives and how they came to be. If some of the other characters were to have “spinoff” books I would read them.

The hardest part for me was the fact that Edward saw himself as perfect or better than. There were a lot of times were he felt condescending. He calls the other students, children a lot and especially Jacob. I found that to be a put off. He doesn’t know how great he looks but also knows that he’s made to be attractive to humans to be able to kill them. I found him to be sort of douche so now I’m not sure if I am still Team Edward. Can I be Team Emmett, cause he really went up in my mind after reading Midnight Sun.

The other book I read was Close Enough to Touch by Colleen Oakley, which was very fitting as I had Covid-19 and seriously couldn’t touch anyone for 3 weeks.

I rate this book 🧤🧤🧤 gloves out of 5. It follows a woman who has a human touch allergy and a man who has children he is having a hard time connecting to. She’s a librarian and he wants to read books to connect with his daughter. His son thinks she has magical powers since she wears gloves all the time and she understands his love of comic books.

It is a bit predictable but it has heart and for that I liked it.

Stay tuned for my book thoughts on Maud.

Stay Fancy,
Ana Maggie

Peaceful Passing

August 4, 2020 is not a day I’ll ever forget.

7:00 am my father gives his last breath.

Nor will I forget the desperate cries that my brother has as he delivers the devastating news to me just after 8 am that morning.

The stoic calm my other brother exhibits as he tells me what I have to do, which is get to my sisters ASAP for the 7 hour drive to my parents town in Mexico.

Or the quiet sobs my mom has as she’s telling me the love of her life is dead as I call her next.

As peaceful an exit as anyone would hope for, in his chair with a full belly of his favorite midnight snack, atole.

After those phone calls that morning my world pivots on itself. It’s as if I am no longer tethered to the world. I am a balloon with two strings and one string has let go, with the other I can’t steady myself anymore. I am a balloon that is flapping in the wind held by only one string instead of two.

I am the youngest of his 10 children, their combined 12 children. I am the baby.

Grief is a miserable feeling. It’s exasperating at times, longing most of the time.

What I have learned in these few days since then is that when you are struck with news such as this, peace becomes a verb.

You have to seek it. Hold on to it. It’s not something that will come to you, you have to find your peace. There will be unanswered questions, unattained goals, unsaid things, but that doesn’t have to disturb the peace that you have found. It is in fact letting go of those things that brings the peace. Surrendering to the feelings.

I’m still grieving. I still have a long way to do but I do know what comes what may my peace stays with me.

Peace, Love & Lipgloss

Ana Maggie

Planner life

Recently I got into planner stickers and decorative planning. If you have no idea what it is, this is where you place decorative stickers to make your week into a theme as a way of planning. This has been around for years apparently, but I just recently, as recent as July got into it. I was perusing the planner aisle at Michael’s and I instantly was drawn to these planners where you add stickers that are both functional and decorative. Apparently, the planners are empty, and you add stickers for each activity, even taking your pills!

I have always been a planner but just not with stickers. Every year I choose a new yearly planner with very careful thought. I think of the layout I want, the covers and design. I also have a small purse planner and there is a careful thought process in that too. I even have a work planner; this one has all my work to do’s and appointments. I love jotting my to-do list down and that accomplished feeling of checking things off the list. This planner is a July – June planner that I usually buy in the middle of the year.

Since as far back as I can remember I love planning. I remember wanting so bad an agenda when I was 8 or so! I did not have anything to write in it at all! No plans whatsoever, I am sure I did not even have a to-do list to make. The only lists I recall making was listing my sibling’s. I would write my very oldest sibling and then list the rest of my siblings down to me. If I were feeling extra type A, I would write down their birthdays as well. There is not much for a young 8-year-old girl to write so this is what I would write in my $1 agenda that I somehow was able to manage to convince my mom to buy.

I am sure my mom bought me this planner because she was an avid planner as well. My love of planning comes from mom. She always had an agenda, and I am sure hers was filled with appointments and things to do to manage her family of 7 kids and her notary business and her business cards! Enter my love of stationary! I will have to get into that in another post! But I loved seeing my mom’s agenda and then my sister’s agendas as well. As chaotic as our home was, I have vivid memories of her sitting at her desk filling out her agenda.

This current year I decided to buy a Prayerful Planner and I was truly happy with it. I loved the functionality of it and the spiritual reminders in it. But then I did not want to give up my prayer journal and I felt it was redundant. If you do not have a prayer journal than the Prayerful planner is a great one! I used it every day right up until I saw the Happy Planner in July. I was looking for a new work planner since my work planner is updated every July for the new school year. I bought the Happy Planner in July. And quickly bought 4 sticker books after that and fell into the love of sticker planning. Check out my November weeks below.

Now I am currently looking for my planner for 2020. I am going to do 3 planners next year one for work and one for home and then one for my purse. already bought a Happy Planner for 2020 for work to finish off the sticker books that I have. I already bought my purse planner too, which is another Happy Planner but this one won’t have any stickers just appointments in different pen inks, again I do not want to go into detail about my love of stationary but pens are a big component for it too! Anyway, as I plan next year I like to look back at this year and the planners I kept and how I used them. I found the Prayerful Planner was not for me as previously stated. Then I started to think of my Happy Planners.

I realized that my type A heart needs more cohesion in my sticker planning. Sticker planning is what I want to continue doing be next year, but the randomness of Happy Planner stickers was starting to get to me. I need them to be more uniform than what it allows. The stickers did not always fit in the boxes, they were always a little off, as you can see from my video above. That was not sitting too well or giving me planner peace. Yes, there is such a thing as planner peace. So, I continued to ponder my planner peace and realized I knew what I had to do.

I have been an avid Paper & Glam follower, finding their book club years ago and then quickly realizing I am a seasonal person too! That also is another post, which I will be posting soon. I have been watching these planner videos and have kept seasonal living lists and it dawned on me why did not I stick with the Paper & Glam planner inserts? Then I remembered why, the weekend space is smaller and stacked and upon reviewing my planners I realized that the weekend is a planner space where I need more room. So, I never bought the Paper & Glam Planner inserts until last week when the Glam Planner Luxe Inserts dropped! My mouth dropped as well! I knew this was the planner for me! The weekend space issue was fixed, and I knew I needed this planner for next year as well as the Ultimate Glam Monthly Planner Kit.

Wish me luck! I know this will be a hard task for me to stick with one planner all year, I think the Ultimate Glam monthly planner kit will help me keep this goal. It fulfills my Happy planner and my Glam planner needs. This might not be the simple side of me having 3 planners and I know having a monthly sticker kit delivery is definitely fancy. But it gives me planner peace!

“Planner” Peace & Love

Ana Maggie

 

p.s. Should I do monthly planner videos?

Queen, you’ve been called for such a time as this!

When you think of being a queen you think of power and boldness. You think of holding your head high and walking with a strut. At least that’s what I think. When you read this verse below and think about when God has called you for such a time as this, you think God will give you a boldness. Give you the words to speak out for many to hear and obey. Again, that’s what comes to my mind.

“If you keep quiet at a time like this, deliverance and relief for the Jews will arise from some other place, but you and your relatives will die. Who knows if perhaps you were made queen for such a time as this?”

Esther 4:14

However, when you read about what Esther did and what God wanted from her that’s not what you get. First of all, Esther becomes queen through humility and grace. God was already setting her up for humility when He gave her that assignment. It would be through her humility and God’s grace that she would be able to save her family and nation.

Her uncle, Mordecai, advised her to be queen and then he would call out to her when his enemies were plotting against him and their family. When he called her he said to her the above verse. What was her plan?

  • Fast for 3 days, her and your girls, fasted for 3 days. She called a community fast. There is nothing like the power of Prayer and fasting. I will share my fasting experience with you in case you have no clue what that is.
  • Be bold to ask for what you want. In those times you had to be invited to see the King, even a queen couldn’t just go see the King. The boldest thing she did, if you will, is walk in front of the Kings door so he can see her to allow her to come in to see him. This seems so simple but this is Gods grace over her. All she had to do, after praying and fasting, was to walk past the Kings door so he could see her.
  • Humble yourself to make a meal for the persecutor. The King did let her in but then what did she do? She asked to make a meal for the man that was persecuting her family. But the King knew she wanted something else so he asked again. What do you want, he even offered her half of his Kingdom! But she simply asked to make a meal for him and this guy who was after her family.
  • Not once but twice. She did this not once but twice, she humbled herself to make a meal for the man that was persecuting her people, not once but twice! This is incredibly difficult! To be humble and serve, not to people who you like and like you but someone who is plotting to kill your family- TWICE!

This is the boldest thing she did in my newly formed opinion. The story gets better but I pondered on this for a long time. I fancy myself as royalty for the bible says we are daughters of the most high King. I love wearing tiaras and crowns and often remind myself I’m the daughter of the Most High King. But what does God want from us, but our humility. We ask for God to make us bold but God wants to make us humble first. This one is hard for me, call it poor people pride but I don’t like to humble myself. I jokingly will make fun of myself or be humble when receiving compliments, but I find it difficult to serve people. And this is what God wants to work in me. To give me a spirit of serving others just as humbly as Jesus did when He served His disciples.

Instead of asking God for the perfect come back when someone insults me, or the perfect revenge when someone opposes me, I need to serve those who oppose me. Treat them with the real kindness of Jesus, not the “Kill them with kindness” kindness. But the washing their feet kindness that Jesus did, or the forgiving kindness that Jesus showed Judas and even shared a meal with those who would betray Him.

I have asked God to make me a new person for the old to leave me and the new to come. This is what that looks like, searching the parts of you that don’t align with the perfect example that is Jesus and changing that part of you. It’s a hard process and will change the very core of me, but this is what I want. To be a new person, I keep remembering my verse from the beginning of this year, I shared it on my Instagram:

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.”

2 Corinthians 5:17

What happened with Esther and her people? Their prayers worked, and God saved them. The same fate the persecutor had for you, will be the fate they end up with. I encourage you to read Esther in the Bible, it’s a simple read but it’s an amazing story!

Peace & Love,
Ana Maggie

Don’t quit!

Has God ever spoken so clearly to you before?

Recently, we had some staff changes at work, and with that comes personality changes. We had the same team for over 3 years, and now we have 2 new team members, and meshing a new team takes time to build. All this led me to contemplating over possibly switching jobs and maybe even a different career path. I sought council from people that I trust and value their opinion, including my mama and got some conflicting answers, some saying quit, others offering me job opportunities, others to stay. I was very confused to say the least. I even went to a women’s gathering and the speaker said to leave the job. I’m always sensitive to signs that God would want me to do something.

Found this fitting meme.

But when I fasted and sought the word from God I received what I had to do. When you are seeking an answer, you’ll look for anything to answer your question. The first thing you have to look to is God. In your prayer time when you drown out all the other noise you’ll get your answer. I don’t even need to seek council from everyone else. You can however, seek prayer from others. Ask for your people to pray for you to get clarity from God.

“If your boss is angry at you, don’t quit! A quiet spirit can overcome even great mistakes.”

Ecclesiastes 10:4 NLT

God has called me on an assignment and just because the assignment is getting tough does not mean I need to throw in the towel. God had to remind me I can do anything through Him who gives me strength. If God called me here then He has a plan for me! It got me thinking to when I prayed for the position I have now, and the blessing that was revealed to me when I switched positions. I was reminded of my call to my new job, to live openly and expansively. Another version says, “Open your hearts to us!” – 2 Corinthians 6:13. God called me to have an open heart.

That’s what God had initially called me to do. When I think about my issues at work and what I have troubles with, this is what I struggle with the most; I don’t have an open heart. But it is what God had called me to do first, knowing I would struggle with it. It takes me a long time to let people in, to open my heart up to anyone. I’ve joked that after 2 years, I’ll be your best-friend- but not before. I’ve done that a lot, and the people in my life know cause it has taken them a while to become friends. It’s not the right way to live, and definitely not the way God wants me to live. It’s my character that God is working with, calling me to be open to new people. To allow people in so they can see God through me. If I have this great light and don’t share it with anyone in darkness what good is it?

Pray for me as God continues to mold me into who He wants me to be.

Peace & Love
Ana Maggie

New Title, New Viewpoint

Look who’s back! I’ve been so busy at work and I finally had a break this week! So of course I wanted to liven back up the blog! Speaking of work…

I work at a school in Dallas where I currently do data entry type stuff, entering student data into our school database and working with stakeholders to analyze the data. I like it, I value perfection and it allowed me to have perfection with my data. I have done this for more than 5 years and I’ve really liked it.

During those 5 years, I formed a Folklorico Club with scholars, this is my third year with the club and it keeps me the most busy. This year we even walked the Cinco de Mayo parade. It has been a true joy to do that, when I was in Kinder I walked the same parade many years ago. It brought back so much feelings of nostalgia and joy. This year I also started a Kind Club with the 5th grade girls in my school, showing them girl empowerment and how to be Kind to each other.

It got me re-thinking what I’m doing at work. I realized my goals had changed. I realized that I want to improve my community. That I want to continue in this path of showing my city with it’s constant changes that it comes down to the people.

When I grew up all of the office staff at my schools didn’t speak Spanish, so we had to translate for my mom constantly, even though the primary demographic of my school was Hispanic. I’m ready to step into those shoes and fill the gap between parents and schools.

That let me to switch roles at work, and I went from data entry to helping to create a culture in my school and by doing that creating a new culture in my community.

This and lots of prayer led me to my job transfer.

Dear, dear Corinthians, I can’t tell you how much I long for you to enter this wide-open, spacious life. We didn’t fence you in. The smallness you feel comes from within you. Your lives aren’t small, but you’re living them in a small way. I’m speaking as plainly as I can and with great affection. Open up your lives. Live openly and expansively!”
‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭6:11-13‬ ‭MSG‬‬
Wish me luck as I try to tackle community engagement and enrollment in my school. This job will not be easy for me since I will have to work with people, parents mostly.
Peace & Love
Ana Maggie

Fruit of the Spirit

Recently I went to a Women’s conference at Shoreline City church called Sisterhood! It was a great time and I felt the Spirit really calling me to change. I left with a renewed spirit and love for God.

The setup was beyond!

I went with my friends and that night I met so many new friends! Everyone was so sweet and engaging!

I went with my “sisters” Patricia (middle) and Sylvia (right)

That night we learned about the Fruit of the Spirit! And this is something I dove into in the weeks after!

But the Holy Spirit produces this kind of fruit in our lives; love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Galations 5:22-23

But they delight in the law of the Lord, meditating on it day and night. They are like trees planted along the riverbank, bearing fresh fruit in each season. Psalm 1:2-3

He cuts off every branch of mine that doesn’t produce fruit, and he prunes the branches that do bear fruit so they will produce even more. John 15:2

Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me. John 15:4

But blessed is the man who trusts me, God, the woman who sticks with God. They’re like trees planted in Eden, putting down roots near the rivers – never a worry through the hottest of summers, never dropping a leaf, serene and calm through droughts, bearing fresh fruit every season. Jeremiah 17:7

I will post more about the fruits of the Spirit and how each of them has changed me and what I learned from studying each one.

But the Fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such things there is no law. Galations 5:22-23

They asked us to bring new panties and bras as a part of their outreach

I had a great night and I’m looking forward to the next one on May 10. See you there!

Peace & Love,
Ana Maggie

Ever-Evolving

Greetings once again! My apologies for the year hiatus. I will be transparent with you I just haven’t felt very creative with this blog to push it forward. My life has become at someone of a standstill and I haven’t felt motivated to carry this blog on.

But when you feel a pull to start it up again and most importantly a strong calling from God to share His plans for my life, you act accordingly.

Moving forward you will see this blog turn into praise reports and acts of God moving in my life. As well as personal insights and musings of a girl who is reigniting her love life with Jesus Christ!


Peace & Love
Ana Maggie